as much as i may be feeling worse than you,
i want to
share your burden,
to lend you my shoulder when you
need someone to cry on,
to listen when you need a
listening ear,
to help you with your problems,
to support you when you need it,
and to cheer you up when you're down.
i'm
never gonna give you up.
you can escape from this world,
but never from me.
because i belong in your world.
[ doing all these for you, my friend, though you never once noticed me ]
steal my soul; 12:38 PM
back from camp!
and im already missing dum dum and waana! ):though im sorta happy to come back home, i'm sad to leave camp!
i hated it there
at first, but then took a little while to adapt.
and after the campfire and all, i really wished we wouldnt leave
just yet.
rock climbing, kayaking, the flying fox and the challenge rope courses were fun.
but whats best that came out of it was that
we learnt something.
we learned
to cooperate, to encourage, to trust and to support one another.
our class coming together as one made me love camp even more!
steal my soul; 12:51 AM
i now realise how
stupid i was to think that the things i did for you was worthwhile.
you
never deserved it.
you're just like mom. you never cared. and its
always my fault.
running my life is what you try to do.
but i promise.
whatever i'm doing right now, shall only be for myself.
steal my soul; 2:25 PM
even a
teacher can see something
is troubling me.
and
actually shows concern.
so why cant you?
you always thought i wouldnt be this way.
and just because i seem and look stronger than someone else's kid,
you left me aside?
steal my soul; 10:57 PM
no one can understand the way i felt all this while.
no one knows what i've been doing when i'm down.
because no one is me - (I)
dont control me. my life isn't all about you.
yeah, so i've been hiding the stress im under.
but cant you kindly help me make it all easier?
never mind about the i-dont-think-you're-good-enough thing
but just give me a break mom,
stop doing what you've been doing.
let me catch my breath,
then question my thoughts again.
steal my soul; 11:23 PM
its been quite a while.
and only now did i realise i havent apologise for my mistakes.
1. i'm sorry for loving the right guy. but
making the wrong choice.
2. i'm sorry i'm not perfect.
3. and i'm sorry
i didnt make you feel perfect either.
4. i'm sorry i didnt give you enough freedom.
5. and i'm sorry for giving you
all the wrong type of freedom.
6. i'm sorry we're fated, but not in the way that we'll be together.
7. i'm sorry i didnt get to show you how much i love you.
8. and
i'm sorry for you. because you didnt get the chance to see how much i love you.
9. and lastly,
i'm sorry for you. because you wont even be bothered to see my apologies.
steal my soul; 7:07 PM
i guess we knew.
that everything was just for fun.
or so it seems.
fine with me, anyway i got THE fun you intended.
this year's so busy, i wont have time to think
about you anymore.
in fact, i'm already used to it -
you out of my life.
thanks for everything kid.
steal my soul; 2:33 AM
yeah that was totally predictable.
its a new year, a busy one too.
and there.
the thing i didnt want most then [ then = before i left for my holiday ] happened. - we're gonna be over.
so be it. it was all a game.
and like i said 'summer fling'
steal my soul; 11:11 PM
i love lit!
yeah, part of it is because im in the same class as my bestfriend!
and it feels great!
we havent been, because of grades and everything.
even the venue's great, makes it feel like those lectures at poly.
and of course, the teachers are interesting.
steal my soul; 9:32 PM
so, it
may be a misunderstanding. but that doesnt change anything.
im not making life difficult for you.
or any of us.
its just,
i dont feel secure.
i don't expect you to pick me up from sch, or send me to sch, or get me gifts, or even call me every night.
because i know you're busy. so i never asked you for anything.
all i ever wanted was a little more concern and attention from you.
steal my soul; 8:14 PM
okay so
maybe its all a misunderstanding.
but still, you could have told me.
steal my soul; 1:08 AM
i know i shouldnt have felt that way
but i just did.
sorry if i did you wrong.
mutual affection huh!
unfortunately, there wasn't mutual understanding.
hah or there might be a beginning!
anw, school's been great. fun but stressful.
steal my soul; 3:19 PM
yeah, gone for one week and everything's changed.
we seem so distant.
since school started, there'll be no more talking through the night.
and no more meeting up as much.
ah! i cant be bothered anymore.
actually, i am bothered. very.
but
i dont want to be.
steal my soul; 11:25 PM
( during the trip in new zealand )
i'm in the airplane
again.
only this time, im leaving new zealand for singapore.
and yes, i have the same problem
again.
[ i'm not ready to leave yet! ]
because if i go back just to find you're with another girl, i'd rather stay there forever thinking you still love me.
steal my soul; 12:35 PM
